ANG IYONG PAGMAMAHAL BATAY SA BUWAN NG KAPANGANAKAN

Para kay Ness Mercader na ang buwan ng kapanganakan ay Agosto nasa ibaba ang pagsusuri ng iyong pagmamahal:

웃 :Mahilig magpatawa

웃 :Kaakit-akit

웃 :Swabe at maalagain

웃 :Matapang at walang kinakatakutan

웃 :Matatagan at may katangian ng isang pinuno

웃 :Nakakaalam kung paano aaliwin ang iba

웃 :Masyadong mapagbigay at makasarili

웃 :Bilib sa sarili

웃 :Uhaw sa papuri

웃 :Kakaiba

웃 :Madaling magalit

웃 :Galit kapag naudyok

웃 :Madaling magselos

웃 :Mapagmasid

웃 :Maingat

From: http://apps.facebook.com/p_affection/index.php

My facebook friends are going gaga on this Facebook application in where you just have to put your birthday month and (whalla!) it will display your characteristic and personality. I know there has been a lot, many applications like this. Some are like duh! Some we’re awesome enough that will make you think if these we’re really you. LOL

The above items made me think. Really. Well, these we’re kinda true. I like some of the results but some of them, uhmm not sure. But what the heck! As if I care. You can try this out too.

Smile!!

MY NEW DESKTOP BACKGROUND

WHATTADAY!!

Husband decided to take a time off from work. He has been sleeping all day. While me, I’ve been out of our house for almost the whole day.

I had a very long day. Tiring day. Draining day. Got an invite for a job interview at 2pm. Finished around 330pm. They asked me come back 8 in the evening for another round of grammar-english draining conversation. My migraine is in the house again when I got home. It’s was trying to kill me. Fortunately, I still have my doze of my friend paracetamol. But this friend always gets me groggy everytime it’s in my system. I fell asleep. For 2hrs.

7pm, I started to prepare again for my 2nd interview. I arrived at exactly 8pm. Other applicants we’re in the venue also. Soon enough, the lovely HR people and interviewers arrived. They started calling names. I patiently waited in my seat. Patiently… Patiently!!

1130pm, they called my name. Take note, I started waiting 8pm. Nice, no? They directed me to the person assigned to me. And the 2nd round started. It lasted for an hour. My head is spinning and the killer headache is attacking again. I can’t even remember how I got back to my seat..

Soon, they called my name again. One of the HR person told me that I passed the interview. I can’t remember how I reacted. I just realized they’re saying that I am overqualified for my current position but underqualified for the higher position. However, they will still schedule me for an interview with their Site Director and he/she will decide which position they will put me into. So, I agreed. They told me to wait for a call tomorrow or next week because they still have to check the available time of the Director.. I said okay.

I then saw myself riding a cab already heading back home. Husband is already waiting me. But the headache is killing me. So, I took a paracetamol again. After 30mins, I felt okay.

So we went out to get super late-dinner/super early-breakfast. We got the big breakfast from Ila Puti. Yummy!!

Now, we’re home again and now ready to hit our bed. I can now feel I’m tired and sleepy. I can only thank God for the endurance and strength he is giving me.

What a day!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA

Happy birthday Ma! Miss na miss na kita. Sorry, I can't be with you today. I think this is the 1st time that we're not together on your birthday. I miss you so much na andun na ako sa point na everytime maaalala kita, naiiyak talaga ako. Madami ako gustong ipagpasalamat syo Ma. Sobrang dami. Simula sa pag-aalaga mo sa akin nung ipinag buntis mo ako, hanggang ngayon. Sa lahat-lahat. Hindi ko pwedeng isa-isahin yung lahat ng yun, kasi, every second, every minute at oras ng buhay ko, ipinagpapasalamat ko kay Lord dahil ikaw ang binigay niyang mama ko.


I know, I am not the perfect child for you. Sobra kang bait for me. Minsan, what you deserve is yung daughter na mabait, magalang, hindi sumasagot-sagot, hindi nagsisinungaling, hindi nagdadabog kapag napagsasabihan.. Pero, ni minsan, hindi ko nakita syo na ayaw mo sa akin. Ni minsan, hindi mo ako binitawan. Ikaw ang best friend ko, ma.


Ngayon, malayo ako syo. Pasensya ka na kung hindi kita nakakasama ng madalas. Sorry ma kung hindi ako everyday nag te text syo. Once in a blue moon din lang ako tumatawag syo. Minsan lang din ako nag sasabi ng I love you syo.. Sorry kung minsan, hindi kasya yung perang pinapadala ko syo. Sorry kung minsan, ikaw nakakasagot ng mga tawag ng mga naniningil sa credit cards.. Sorry ma.. sorry sa lahat ng pagkukulang ko.. Sorry ma..


Ang palagi kong hiling is maging masaya ka. Humaba pa ang buhay mo. Dahil, hindi ko pa natutupad yung mga pangarap natin. Yung dream natin na makapasyal sa disneyland. Makapagbakasyon. Kahit saan. Yung worry-free na bakasyon. Yung everytime, gusto mo mag shopping, pwede. Yung palagi tayong magkasama sa parlor. Yung mas maraming bonding time natin sa kwarto natin na wala tayong ginawa kundi magkwentuhan tapos tumawa ng malakas.


Kahit kelan, hindi ako magsasawa ma.. Kahit araw-araw pa. Kahit pancit canton lang ang ulam ko, ikaw naman saging. Kahit araw-araw tayo manood ng mga teleserye at manlait ng mga artista. Kahit araw-araw ka pa humingi ng pang load mo skin. Kahit hindi ka nagsasalita kapag may problema ako. Yung pag-iyak mo with me, tama na sa akin yun. Kahit everyday kita turuan gumamit ng computer. Kahit araw-araw kita turuan magbasa ng mapa. Kahit ano ma, basta ikaw ang kasama ko.. kahit ano ma..


Happy birthday mama. Mahal na mahal kita. Hindi ko man sinasabi ng madalas, hindi ko man napaparamdam syo palagi, mahal na mahal kita. Sana napapasaya kita kahit paano, kahit konti.


Thank you for everything. Thank God for giving you to me. Thank you for being my best friend. I love you..

BOTHERING..

Something’s bothering me since this morning. I recently changed to Globe since my Smart number was locked. I texted my Mom:

“Ma, dito ka na sa Globe ko mag text ha. Yung Smart ko, para sa mga job applications na lang yun. Alis ka today?”

She replied immediately: “Hindi, naglaba ako.”

Immediately, I felt something’s unusual. Unusual on that message I received from Mama. Normally, if I text her, ask her if she’s going anywhere, she would reply to me answering my question plus some added comments. Normally, I can feel the pleasantness of her message and her mood. But this time, it’s different. It’s very unusual that’s she’s on a “1 question = 1 answer” mode. For a while, I was thinking about it. Being alone in my living room, I get to realized that there’s something wrong. I know. I can feel it. But I chose to ignore it, thinking that Mama is just busy doing the laundry that’s why she didn’t have time to make kwento to me.

After some time, around past lunch time, I learned that my mother-in-law and god-mother are spending a 4-day vacation here on October. I got excited so I texted my mama again.

“Ma, pupunta dito and balae mo kasama si ninang sa October. Oct ** to **. Gusto mo sumama?”

Of course, I wanted her to have a vacation as well. Though, she knows that I am still looking for a job right now, she knows very well that we are on a very tight financial situation. I was thinking that since it is still going to be on October, I can probably save some money to get her plane tickets.

She replied: “Hindi na.”

I wanted to ask her why. And what’s wrong. I wanted to ask her that I can feel something different on her text messages.. But, again, I just ignored it. I replied : “Okay…”

After that, no more.. Something’s wrong. I can feel it. I know there’s something that’s bothering my mama..

I was browsing through my Facebook and Twitter accounts. I launched my browser and it directed to my homepage. My homepage displays my daily horoscope. My eye balls almost popped out when I saw it.

My heart pumped harder than I can feel it. There’s something going on.. To quote my horoscope today - August 16, 2010: “Those closest to you will be expecting a lot of your attention..” I knew it. But I am clueless, what’s bothering my mama.. I hope she’s okay. I promise to call her tomorrow..

While writing this, I was praying. Praying that my mama is okay. Praying that whatever’s bothering her, it’s just as simple like the times that she misses me. Praying that when I call her tomorrow everything will be okay and back to normal…

NAKED PALETTE

First time I heard about this, I looked up in the internet and I fell in love with it!! I am really not into make up. But I have some which I used for myself and as a collection also. But this one, I want this!!! This is something I want, I need. Someday, I'll have my own share of my experience in using my own Naked Palette!!! 

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AUGUST 13, 2010 : FRIDAY THE 13th

August 13 na pala. Hindi ko na namalayan. Parang kelan lang nung mga bandang July, iniisip ko kung ano mangyayari sa birthday ko. Eto, one week na pala ang nakakalipas. Hay.. Ang bilis ng araw. Friday the 13th pa.

I can say that I had a very productive day. I started August 12 (Thursday). I woke up 12pm. I checked my laptop and I got a message from a somebody in Skype (a recruiter of some Company) saying that I got a face-to-face interview with W****.Malapit lang naman dito sa house namin yun, pero wala ako sa mood mag prepare and makipag englishan. So, deadma. I got out of bed, left my husband snoring (hehe) then went down to the living room. Here are the things I've accomplished:

12pm - 2:30pm : Laundry + Super Mario in Wii
2:30pm - 3pm : Nagsampay ng mga finished products ng pinakamamahal kong washing machine
3pm - 3:10pm : Nagligpit ng mga kalat ko sa paglalaba (empty sachets of Ariel powder soap, empty sachets    of Downy isang banlaw.
3:10pm - 4:15pm : Naligo ako ng bonggang-bongga. General cleaning kasama na ang paglilinis ng mahal kong cr.
4:15pm - 5pm - Prepared my husband food - Menudo + Maling + Steamed Rice
5pm - 5:30pm - Rest for a while. Watched Dirty Jobs in Discovery Channel
5:50pm - 6pm - Had early dinner with husband. Yes, our dinner time is around this time. Because he had to go to the work at 7pm.
6pm - 6:20pm - Washed the dishes
6:20 - 7pm - Watched news while my husband is preparing for work
7pm - 11pm - This is my "me" time. Relax mode. Watched ABS--CBN's teleseryes. LOL. I must admit, eversince I stayed home, I enjoy watching them - straight from 7pm - 11pm. Before, I usually stop watching tv at around 12am. That is when I am still enjoying NNNN. Pero, nagsawa na ako. So, 11pm, goodbye tv na ako.
11pm - 1:30am - Nag plancha ako ng mga damit.
August 13, 2010 ; 1:30am - 2:30am - Clean our bedroom. Changed bed sheets and curtains.

Here you go. These were the things that kept me busy the whole day. I'm pretty contented. Here's a picture of my finished product at the end of my August 12, 2010.

I love the colors of our bedroom now. From chocolate brown & royal blue, now it's all light color. And, oh! I forgot, There's Bibi (white dog - he's a boy according to my husband). There's Nicci (brown teady bear - she a girl according to my husband. And there's Froggy! Say "Hi!" to them guys. =)

MY 2010 BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION

As I have blogged on my earlier post, August is my birthday month. August 4, to be exact. I was expecting something from my husband. A birthday or a a very generous dinner date, maybe? Haha! But since he cannot take a leave on his work, we agreed to celebrate the whole week. Like dinner the other day, then tomorrow, dinner again. he wants to make sure I will have a taste again of my favorite restaurants on my birthday.

1st stop: The non-dying Ayala Mall (Cebu). Husband went to work early so he can go out for a lunch break at around 8pm. I fetched him in the office then we went off to RED KIMONO. My favorite Japanese restaurant. We decided to take the table outside. The weather was kind of gloomy and air was cold. very nice to have a dinner. *wink* After the dinner, husband got to be back in the office already or else, he will get a memo from the Guard for over break.

2nd stop: The next day, we had dinner again in the famous IT Park of Cebu -- one of our favorites - EAST WEST. We had their yummy pork chops, potato joe (it's like potato wedges) and their iced coffee. Our experience in there was always good, ever since. Except for this one that several foreigners were occupying the 3 tables. They're having dinner too! They pissed me off, literally. After they had dinner, they played truth or consequence. They we're so loud. So noisy. Up to the point that me and my husband had a very hard time hearing each other. I can say that they they are the most "bastos" race I have ever encountered. Shet sila! I asked one of the waiters to let those aliens know that they're so loud. The waiter just nodded at me. I bet he didn't tell them since they are all English speaking. So, dedma! The hell with them. But they ruined our dinner date. I just hope next time, there is a Manager in the restaurant to manage the floor and the customers.

3rd stop: One of nice restaurants in (again!) IT Park. ROMA MIA. Husband ordered their famous grand father pork chops. I ordered their roasted chicken in herbs. And plus their vanilla shake. Yummy!!!

And the fairest of them all?? We had an overnight stay in Waterfront Hotel. Had dinner at PINO. We really enjoy their buffet food. Everytime we have extra money, we go there. The food is Filipino cuisine. The crew is great. The place is perfect. We ended our stay in the hotel with their buffet breakfast the next day. Super yummy! We really enjoyed it. I can say that husband really want to make sure he is eating every miles points that he has for our stay there. LOL. The reason why we also decided to get a hotel room for my birthday was to have our 2nd honeymoon. Since we didn't really had a decent honeymoon after our wedding, we didn't push through with our supposedly week-long Hongkong vacation due to lack of funds. Haha!

But! Just after we ate, I rushed to our hotel room because my stomach was acting up. Oh my gosh! LBM. So funny. Husband went back to our room after like 15mins. Rushing to get in the comfort room as well. LBM!! We we're laughing! We we're very happy. 12pm, check out time. Our tummy's still acting up. And now, while I am writing this, we are still in pain. Taking turns in using the comfort room. Haha! This is what we call "katakawan!"












Happy birthday to me. Thank you Hun for my birthday treat! I love you!

August 5, 1978

August 5, 1978 - The day when two people said I Do to each other with the blessings of the Holy Catholic Church. They are Mr. Rolando C. Vela and Marina B. Vela. Yes, they are my parents. My loving parents!

They have been through ups and downs. I was there during those times.

Mama who is very conscious on the cleanliness of everything - my room, the comfort room, the laundry, the whole house. She spends her free time cleaning. Papa who loves to cook up to the extent that he does not want to have a celebration outside. He would rather cook for everybody. LOL

August 5, 2010. 32yrs of marriage. A roller coaster marriage. Ups and down. Sabi ni Mama, 32yrs na sila nagtitiis ni Papa sa isa't-isa. Funny. But, honestly, I am praying for more blessings and that they will stay together as long as they could. And I also pray na malampasan din namin ng husband ko ang 32yrs.








I love you Mama. I love you Papa!

August 4, 1980

August 4, 1980 - 2pm. The day my mom gave birth to a healthy baby girl. She named her Vanessa. So happy. My mom gave birth at her own room in our province in Pangasinan. With the help of my Nanay (my grandmother) and a komadrona. No anesthesia, no operating room. My dad was holding my mom's hands and soon they heard me crying already. According to them, that was one of their precious moments together.


I grew up with my Nanay. I stayed in the province until I reached 6yrs old. My mom was in Manila, working. My dad was an OFW in Saudi Arabia that time. I grew up in a quiet and peaceful province. I can still remember when the times I go around our barrio with Nanay. She, holding a basket full of puto and kakanin which she made herself and sell them to our neighbors. We will walk all day. Me, holding at the side of her skirt. She, with her basket in her head. I didn't know that I was working at that early age. All I know was after we sell all the puto and kakanin, we will have to fetch my Tatay (grandfather) in our rice fields so we can all go home together. I always ask my Nanay how many more we have to sell because I am so excited to see our carabao and ride on his back with Tatay. It was funny, because me and Tatay will be going home riding our carabao but Nanay will ride the wooden thingy that the carabao is pulling. When we're home, Nanay will prepare dinner. Then we'll eat. Then sleep when it's already 6pm. Yes! 6pm. This is everyday. I can see a clear picture of a happy family.


When I reached 6yrs old, time for me to go to school. My mom got me and brought me to Manila. It was sad. I saw my Nanay crying. I saw my Tatay just sitting by the window and not saying anything. I was excited. I was excited to see Manila for the first time. I didn't know that it will take a long time before I go back to the province. I thought, it will be just a day or two and then I'll be back.


When I got to Manila, I started making friends. With our neighbors, my classmates. I grew up basically alone. My dad was still an OFW and my mom is working. She would just leave my uniform in the closet in where I can reach them and my food in the table. So I can eat before I go to school. Yes, I go to school alone.


Nanay and Tatay would usually visits Manila to see me. That was when their body can still take the hassles of traveling 4hrs on a bus. Not long enough, they got old and sick. My Tatay passed away with an illness. Then 2yrs after, Nanay passed away due to her weak heart. Sad. I was heart broken. I love them. Very much. I can remember, I even loved them more than my own parents (when I was a child).


Then I went to college. Took up Computer Engineering course in one of the well-known computer universities in Manila. This is where I learned how to live my life. I learned to drink alcohol, attend parties like there'll be no tomorrow. I hated my dad during these times. He was still an OFW and for 2yrs, we didn't get anything from him. No news from him. No calls, no letters, he's not sending money for our expenses anymore. We we're so worried. To support my needs, I worked as a service crew in a fast food chain. Fair enough, I was able to buy all the things I want.


After 2yrs, we got a letter from him. Saying he's sorry for what happened. He said that he was prisoned for 2yrs for gambling. Gambling?! Yes, gambling. I knew it. That is why the money he's sending to us before is not even enough for my school needs, because he's wasting his money in gambling. Geesh! I was mad. I saw my mom worked her ass off just to provide all the things I need when my dad was missing in action. I saw her heart broke when she was crying everytime she remembers that her husband abandoned us.


I graduated in college. Worked in different call centers already. Now, I am managing people, motivating people. 30yrs after my mom gave birth, I can say, I already accomplished half of the things I wanna do in life. I know, I'm a bit slow. Let's just say, I am just enjoying my life. I am now married to a wonderful man. We are just waiting for the blessings of having our own little angel..


This is my life. 30yrs before and after. August 4, 2010. My wish for my birthday, is continous happiness, more blessings and healthy family. Happy birthday to me.

New Online Diary..

August is my birthday month. August 1, 2010 is the day I started this new blog. I must admit, I have had blogspot, wordpress and tumblr accounts. But, I already deactivated my previous blogspot and wordpress account. My tumblr is still kicking, though. I wanted to have a privacy. Duh! (How can I do that on the net? On a blog?!) What I meant was, a blog that is not promoted. I should keep my mouth shut up this time, preventing my self to announce that I have a new blog. Not to hide from my friends but as I mentioned a while ago, I wanted a privacy. I am not turning on the privacy settings of this blog. I just want me, myself and I to be the only person who knows about this.

I know, there will be blog hoppers who will discover this but at least, they don't know me (I mean, personally). I wanted a diary. My very own diary. I thought of just writing it in my Starbucks planner, but it is not that I carry all the time. If I put it in my bag, my husband will see it eventually and will know that I am writing on it. Hmm.. So, here it is. My own, secret, private blog.

July month was not my month. It hated me. I lost my job. I was so depressed. I have to money. I have nothing to pay for my bills. Nobody was able to help me. Financially nor emotionally. Of course, I have my husband here, but he's working. He's busy during weekdays. For weekends, we have the usual routine. Saturdays is for malling and grocery. Sunday is for Sunday mass and malling again. But that's it. Again and again and again.

3days to go and it's my birthday. I'll be 30yrs old. I know I haven't accomplished anything yet in my life. Except, of course of marrying the man I love. But most of my childhood dreams hasn't come true yet. I can't remember them anymore. I'll think about them and will post theme here so I can check which one is possible and those which are impossible. LOL

July and August will be full of adjustments. Adjusting to a married life. Adjusting to a husband who's very busy during weekdays. I must get a job, soon! I hope there is an employer waiting for me this August..